Another chapter

...  Today first time I felt not going back home..

Home: My routine thought process, my jungle of thoughts and the complex of thoughts..

I feel like being distracted to the maximum and want to forget whats happening around me..

Hope

Let’s start with simple question. What is hope?

For me hope is staying positive. For someone else it may be source of happiness.

All of us perceive and interpret hope in different and convenient way. But one thing is sure which all of us agree with hope is zest of the life.

If there is hope there is life. The ultimate goal of human soul is to achieve salvation and in the hope of achieving state of Moksh we all are here doing our bit of Karmas.

We humans go through various ups and downs in life. But what keeps us alive is hope. Hope keeps us focused on our desires and hence regulates our happiness.

Because we so deeply feel this hope within us that if something doesn't go as per our hopefulness. We are badly hurt within and then we lose a part of ourselves.  Yes, then we need lot of positive words from our friends and family and it does take time to be back to ourselves.

So, as it says;

Stay hopeful, Stay happy!

Fiction - A terrible dream

I was so sure it will work. I knew within me. I believed in our relationship. I trusted all forces whether spiritual or non spiritual. I didn't leave any hope till the end. Because somewhere I knew deep down it is not suppose to happen.

It was like Tsunami in my life. I didn't lose hope. I tried my best because I knew something deep within that it wasn't planned. I had natural fears but I considered my trust/believe bigger than my fears and I didn't lose hope.

But what I find despite of all my efforts he cold-heartedly thrashed every bit. He didn't bother to even take a stand. It made me feel as if I am falling from a cliff, he holds me and later leaves me to fall and die.

This feeling deep within killed me. I was in vulnerable situation. After repeated mails, messages, no clarification, no explanation, no justification was provided to me. I was disrespected and insulted.

To my great surprise I never received any apology nor any accountability of what he has done.

And the most amazing part was that he laid the foundation of relationship.

I have to bring my life on track. I was losing health, I was losing whatever peace. I tried hard to bring back my life on track. Really hard. I started socializing. I started working hard.


And then.. Aha! Wake up bell! Good morning..A new day!


Oh man! I can be a dramatic writer! Haha!

#Fictitious #Imaginary #Terrible dream

Bits

Some days back someone told me; Go back to blogging, what are you doing?  And I am here thinking what to write. I am such a slow and a confused writer.

Anyway, I am still thinking ..uhmm...what to write....Uhmmm.. Ok, let's see what I have in my mind..

#1: I was watching Wall-E today and it's such a beautiful movie. During the movie I realized expressing love is not so difficult as we think. It's not necessary to have a heart to love. A healthy intention will do that too.

#2: Recently I went for an interview where they asked me a question what is my dream retirement. This question made me think that philosophically and practically we never get a retirement. We are working either making money or taking care of our family or both. We never retire until and unless we leave this body.

#3: When you lose hope. You lose part of yourself.

#4: Some years back X told me; he wants peace of mind and that's why he can betray his love and marry a girl of his parents choice. It kept me wondering is this will really fetch him a peace of mind. Is it so simple?
Because it rather displays shit of mind!

#5: I have not been clicking lately :-(

Dreams

I never had dreams

I always had goals

I still have them

But now I have dreams too

Dreams are peaceful way of exhibiting ones self

In fact I sometimes feel

Goals are so competitive

But dreams are so dreams

There is kind of happiness you absorb within

A satisfying self!

The day I died.

Time flies. One year just flew. Heart and soul coping up.

It still feels that it just happened yesterday. All memories are so fresh. Sometimes wounds are also felt so fresh. It wasn't easy at all when you realize nothing has been acknowledged. Your love, your honesty, your faith, your belief. You were destroyed in a blink of an eye.

You were made to feel so inferior. They laughed on you, made fun of you, and they weren't not even apologetic.

Breezer – Cranberry

Breezer is one of the finest drink I have ever had in category of less alcohol content! In fact it has become my favourite now!

I first had it at my friend’s birthday party. At that time I knew little about Breezers . My friend asked me what flavour you would like to drink. She gave me some options and with lot of scepticism I said Cranberry. As Cranberry is one of my favourite fruit so I thought drink would be great too and it was indeed!

It was my first time that day when I drink it and I really liked it. Taste was relaxing reminded me of my childhood days when I and my brother used to sit together and have those Cranberries in a sunny day under the shade of the tree. That fruity smell, that taste all took me to my childhood days.

In fact when I have to choose the team I was so confused which team should I opt for Jamaican or Cranberry because I like Jamaican too, but the at the end of the day Cranberry wins. It works as a stress buster, after a long tiring day, lying on the sofa , watching TV, taking those slow sips, it just rewinds you. Aha! What more you can ask after a stressful day! A good drink to end a day!
That taste just keeps it going!! And makes it my favourite.!!

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