Comeback

I just noticed that my last post was in 2016! Pretty long time back.. I don't know why I wasn't writing all these years?
But from past sometime I feel like getting back to writing. Past gone years were exhausting especially emotionally. It was a roller coaster ride. From being handling past emotional issues to searching a suitable job I managed all at the same time. Life wasn't easy all these years and I am not cribbing about it either.

All these years have taught me a lot about humanity. They have given me broader perspectives towards world. They have given me insights, life has taught me struggle is a part of life.

I am pausing it right here now because I am unable to find words to continue this post and I just don't want to bulk my post with unnecessary chatter.

Random Lesson!

We have mugged up alot of book lessons but Life lessons are something we generally experience when we go through it in either ways.
I know this that sensitive people observe such things faster and hold them in to their hearts.
There is one more prominent trait which is found in sensitive people is ; They are very sensitive not only to their environment but also very sensitive for one ownself.
Today morning I strongly realised this(after observing a conversation between me and my so-called female friend); sensitivity is a joke to people. You want to forgive them. Be generous to them. It becomes difficult for them to gulp this fact and will not forget to poke you with the same malice intentions! 
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A random realisation leads me to some random thought(goes like this) ;

"People with high Attitude mixed with Ego are not meant to be given second chance in life. Initially they took you as granted. Later They even forget their limits of taking you granted!"

I am Doomed

Yesterday result came,i never expected that i wud score soo low,but i did,it ws a depressing moment bec now i wud nt be able to give my entrance exam CAT a very important exam fr MBA aspirants. I am never sad for marks,i hav seen alot of ups n downs in context to marks,but that day,i ws sad for 2 tings,i wsnt eligible for CAT n my parents were sad. They always wanted their Children to b as brite as others n wich we r not. Its not that tey always pressurise r burden us wid their extraordinary dreams,our parents r very casual n supporting parents but it feels bad to realise that one door of success is closed for their daughter. I am a person wos hardly depressed with this marks scenario,this time i jus wanted to score a bit high so i cud give CAT but destiny has store sumthn else for me. My friends cald me n started giving their sympathies ,wich i really didn want[i ws expecting sumbdies cal so as to cheer my off mood, but it didn came],its a part of life, what matters to me at that time was my parents happiness n wich i ws unable to full fill. I ws tokin to my moma yesterday evening n i ws teling her d same ting that m nt sad that i scored soo low m sad bec i may nt b ble to give CAT n tat time my moma very enthusiastically said,y nt ul b! n I kno tat time il nt b,n may be sumwhere my moma also,it ws just her motherly love n hopes for her daughter,but hw can we neglect the truth,v hav to accept it today r tomorrow.
When the year started,[dont kno had a feeling of that tis year may not b a fruitful year ahead] i prayed to God whtaever will b the year ahead for me,i jus want 3 months of my life this year to b smooth,i.e my birthday[wic ws dull],ten my result[wich ws low too] n leftover month is november[wen hav to give CAT,wich m nt giving now]

Today also this feeling ws haunting me n it made me low fr time being but i met my Dear firend'P' n i really felt better n then now i have also learnt to cope up wid d depreesed part of life.
But this whole incident hav made me realise one very important thing that as child its much easier to cope up wid various depressing moments but as we grow up things changes n it becomes tuffer to cope up r live up wid low moments.
I still hope for a positive future.

"Success is how high you bounce when you hit bottom."