Being Insensitive (is not equal) Being Inexpressive..

Ya. Complex Heading and perplexed post it could be. This is something which I have felt very deeply and that's why all the opinions on this post is what I have felt and feel from the world. I have always thought that Why does people often say  ; I am inexpressive? Are they really? Or it's just their insensitivity which Leads them to say this? Or its Ego, which stops them to even connect with the other person at times? Or they are so very involved with materialistic values of Life and ignorant of the difference between what does insensitivity means and what does Inexpressive?

All these questions banged my head one day and when I gave it a thought I realized that most of the people who says I am inexpressive and just can't express themsleves are the sheer case of insensitivity, Which was disheartening to understand.

I have seen this very often, when a person hurts another person, the person(who hurts) never turns up and apologize. And when asked the reason why s/he didn't say sorry? The only Answer comes: I just didn't know what to express and what to say and how to say? Which is very inappropriate and unethical and insensitive to say this! If you are sensitive enough, you have various ways to convey your warmth to another person, If not with the ease or with some little hesitance but you do convey your regards.

Theres a very thin distinction between being Insensitive and being Inexpressive which generally people are unaware of ;
"Inexpressive person is a person who is so sensitive of its environment itself that s/he will not hurt anybody and not even showcase his/her hurts too."

But often people club things and to stay out of any guilt they name their insensitivity as their inexpressive attribute which is Highly immoral and impractical and feels that it will help them get rid of any guilt and forget to realise that it will rather  push them through high turmoil of  Life.

Depleted

Emotionally Depleted is the word which I am using it for this week. It's not one incident, its just series of incidents which is making me feel this way. Week itself didn't start on good note. From the first day only when it got ruined and I knew it there's alot of happenings sliding their way to make this week miserable.And truly it was miserable.
I am Happy this week is getting over.On the same side I have definately found an outlet too,to release my negativites and I have done to some extend and feeling relieved. I am hoping for the fresh and productive next week with some good positive energies and enthusiasm. There is a lot to do and cope up with.
Hoping for the best.
Good Luck to me!
God Bless me!
:)

Soul..

Immortal is the soul.

When;

Entering A new body.

Feel the Magic

Feel the Divine.

How the same Soul ,

Forgets ;

Everything of past lives

And Starts a New Life

With the same Smile.

:-)

Best Days of My Life...

No no!! I am not talking about Bryan Adam song. But ya, Talking about similar thing, my school days. Just in the morning all the memories popped up, by the message which was shared to me in the early morning by one of my closest friend. Just after that everything went to flashback.
For me school days were the best days.

School was just amazing. I was in sports and in our zero period(which was of 1 hr) I use to be out and play basketball. Yes..in summers and in winters . In summers Oh God!! I got badly tanned. I never applied sunscreen,,Because It irritates me(It still irritates me) I always felt that by putting sunscreen more sweat comes and that too on nose more..So I never applied it :D :D and at the end result was I am badly tanned, with good sunburns...
:D :D :D
I was carefree in school, never bothered about my looks!! I was very much like nerd in school. With spectacles and all. All the time in sports.
But ya I was sincere student. I never bunked neither I was impolite to teachers rather teachers us to like me.
And they always had one complain with my parents. This girl should not be in sports so much. Sit in class. Do her homework more. Go home and study more.
And my moma is like..Yes..Maam!! and I am like..Nooo!!! :D :D
I never listened :D :D :D and had fun to the core. :) :)

The best interesting memory was Bakraz's class( ya, accounts sir nick name was bakra:D) He was oldie with so much white beard and white hair around him :D :D :D
There were hardly any students in his class except some girls including me ;) ;)

His lectures were immensely boring that one can sleep peacfully :D :D
We never wasted our time sleeping, rather eating more.
Yes, Our friend who us to bunk, we us to give him some money and then he goes and buys some donuts and lemonade for us and in that period we us to eat and eat and eat. Though sir always knew about our eating habits but you know..He was scared enough to point out.. :D :D :D :D :D :D

Schol was just funnn!!! Sports, friends, dancing, parties, picnics...
I loved every bit of it. I miss my school, my school days, my teachers.!!!!!!!!

:-):-):-)

Life is...

" Life is too short to think upon the Right time and Right moment"
I am not saying this just the sake of the dialogue but truly it is like this. From past so many days whats going around me and from my observance, I have noticed that Waiting for the right time and right moment for expressing our feelings, our love and care to our loved ones is of no use. Because we don't know what's store in for us tomorrow. Life is too short and as I say its very unpredictable on the same time.
We wait and make plans of conveying some deep feelings of ours to our loved ones by taking not person for granted but time for granted too and later if its very unfortunate we are not unable to convey our deep loving feelings to our loved ones and leaving us in regrets.

We tend to ignore our parents just because we are so busy with our own stuff and that too have no significance when it comes to parents. We just totally take them for granted. They are with us all the time so we can express our emotions our love, care to them any time we want. We wait for that particular moment. But why to wait for any moment when we can express it just there only. Why?? If somebody say we are humans. Right ! We are humans we tend to take things for granted but ! How much!? We should respect their love they give us. And the same way we should love them. Sit with them, talk with them share their experiences. How was their day? What did they do? Whats cooking and how?? All this. Hug them, love them!! Make them feel that we love them a lot and they are important to us!! They are in our world and that's why our world is complete. They are everything to us. These things are to be conveyed in different ways. Some people say that we just so inexpressive and we cant say through words. But does it justify your statement. At least A kiss and a hug can do. If not words. We have grown up so much that we take our decisions not even asking them because we feel that we are bonds kind and are capable of taking our decisions without consulting them but its absolutely wrong assumption we live in . Their experience is more than ours and they will always advise us with better ideas.

We teenagers whenever we feel we have a crush on somebody and then later think this is not the time and moment to share from that man/woman and there we make a mistake because when crush like thing is not planned, its just spontaneous then how can we think of deciding the right time and right moment. It should be like go and convey your feelings. If not this way but surely the other good ways.
We are in happy mood we are enjoying life and having fun because of him/her. We feel top of the world. So don't you think so he/her should be at least conveyed this that you are special and you make me smile!

Yes Fears is something where we all stuck up, fear of losing and we all have this somewhere. But as its said. Dar ke aagey jeet hai :) and Believe me its exactly like this. :)

Same goes with apologies, there is no specific time of saying 5 letter word sorry to anybody . We often don't say it because we give more importance to our ego then to our true emotions. But the fact is Ego helps in nothing but our feelings, true genuine feelings helps in maintaining love in relationship always. Whenever we hurt anybody, Sorry(If said with true heart) is the word so person can feel important and can light up her/him heart from the hurt given by us.

I have realized this that there is no time and any specific moment to exprss our feelings. Whether its parents or friends.  Every moment is perfect and a kodak moment.  There are only few people who complets our world and they are speical because they make our life special. Therefore it is our moral duty to make them feel, loved and jewels of our treasure box. Just be with us always- is the line which is to be conveyed to them wholeheardtly. :)

:)

MotherHood.

Motherhood what a priceless part of women's Life. I certainly realized it today when I noticed 1 year old child with her mother playing around. The kid was covered with all wollens.First sitting and playing in her pram and later with  her mother when she finished doing her household work. Then after she got free, she took her out from pram and kid started walking in zig zag way. She was sweet.

Then I was wondering..

It such a wonderful experience seeing your kid growing everyday. Playing with your kid. Just Running after your kid. Though it can be exhausting but Its a sigh of relief for sure because mother's know somewhere this is how our kid is growing faster.

I was watching that lady she was with her all the time, holding her when ever she falls, keep her away from dogs. And you know what! Dogs are also sensitive enough to feel that this is small kid and can get scared so I should move out from this place and exactly happened. 

Mother has so much to do. Raise kids, do household work and if she's working then look it into her professional matters too.. I think of my childhood days how would they be.. I was naughty girl. Just running here and there touching every bit of showpieces at my home. I never us to eat food till the music is played. I mean , I now think How much worries I have given to my muma..

But I am sure My muma must have been extreamly satisfied seeing me growing everyday and knitting dreams for me every second.. and Love me like Angel for her..
I Love you Ma!! :)

Fun Day= Mon day!! :)

My Day started at 7'0 clock. Woke up with severe blocked nose of Cold. I still couldn't understand how it happened so suddenly. The feeling of blocked nose is so irksome that I cant even express it. Then at last I have to call moma, she came running and asks with a voice full of tension, What Happend Baby? And I replied moma my nose got blocked, I am not able to breath and not able to sleep. After that she brought some vicks and spread it on my nose. What I notice after sometime that The vicks is of no use. I am still suffering from the same irksome feeling which was earlier.

Anyway...

I tried sleeping somehow and I slept. Though I couldn sleep properly, but anyway it was better then not sleeping and suffering from that exasperation.

Later..

I have to meet some of my friends in Connaught Place today. Who had never been to CP and I have to take them to Hot spots of CP. We actually today had lot of fun.

In fact there are lot of memories attached to place CP which got revived today.

We went to Bangla Sahib also. 

May be the best memories are associated wid Bangla Sahib only, those fishes in the pond, touching them, the prasad(Halwa and the Langar both) everything. I had the best memories of it and the icing on the cake was going back home from metro, That was also memorable.

In short it was a memorable day with a pleasant memories flashback.

Aur Last baat!!!

CP Jao aur earrings na lekar aoo..aisa ho he nahi sakhtaa..!!! Yes the above photo is my new smiley earrings which I bought from CP today.

:)

Cheers*

:)