":D"

:):D

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An Impressive and touching story by him.

Must read, Strongly Recommended by me:-)
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A year of sorrows...

It was early morning around 1:30am or so today, got a call from my very dear friend and she was crying,i asked what happened?She said my father is no more,i was speechless. I didn't know what to say,how to react?And i coudln't talk to her further,and i kept the phone down.

I just got over with similar phase 3 months back.It was traumatic.My best friend lost her young 25 years old brother in road accident.He was studying in Australia. I still remember,it was Saturday morning,i was messaging her just to share some tid-bits of my life and she didn't reply to any of my messages.Then on my way to class i called her and i was about to blabber and she said Prashant is no more.I was Blank,i asked her Who Prashant? She said my Brother and she hung up.My mode got anestheatic that time,i was not at all aware of my surroundings and i was walking blankly then after 2-3 second i regained my consciousness and then called my mother she was also shocked then she and Papa both rushed to her place and i went to the class first,couldn't concentrate for a second,i left the class in between and rushed.

I have seen that pain,that crying of grandparents,that crying of a mother, a father, a younger sister.It was too depressing,She is my dearest friend and i usto go to her place everyday,i know how it used to be,she usto cry and i was so helpless,i just can't do anything.
God bless there entire family.

Now its 3 months i still can see that pain in her family,Uncle who usto joke allot,now he doesn't do it much.Aunty who usto be so cheerful all the time,now shes not like that,shes so restless from her mind,her state of mind has disturbed,she just wants some peace,mental peace.

Again same circumstances has arisen, my friend lost her father,the pain is unbearable.I don't know how i'll console her.My strength is lost,my energies are still not 100% rejuvenated,I am again helpless.My life too is not 100% on track,i know my problems are too smaller,but its getting tufer for me to handle those.


Today i have to go to her place,but couldn't go,because i can't witnessed dead body and people crying badly.I am very vulnerable.I am very sorry for that but,my power was not allowing me to witnessed that scene.I have become weak.

This year was full of sorrows,my another close friend lost her grandmother.It was too depressing.

I just pray to God,that he blesses entire Aspanani family.Give them strength to come out from this low phase of life.

God Please bless all ,love all. Your hand of a blessings will just make everything smooth.

An Undelivered Email !

This was an email i read in one of my friend's inbox,she couldn't send this to her beloved because of unfortunate circumstances.

--This letter is not displayed here for any sympathy reason,its just about ones innocent feelings..
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Dear
My dear,today i really want to confess some of my very integral feelings,which was always a very deep part of me ad my life but now i think its a right time and i should share it with you as it involves you also.
I know u from past 2 years and i never realised this that i have a crush on you. First i thought that its just an infatuation,and may be it was,but as our relationship started growing,i found that it is more than that,though i still can't feel that it is love factor but then also it was something, which i was unaware of.
I have felt that jealousy and that possessiveness in me.Though every intentions of mine was pure.My jealousy and my possessiveness never lead me to take any evil step towards any of your relationship.My feelings were balanced.

I don't trust people so easily neither i give them chance to be part of my life,but you were successful in making that place.

I don't know how you feel, the same way I do.?

I have always felt protected under your friendship,in fact you were the person whom i always felt knows me better though not in and out but to some extent you always knew how am I.
You have always guided me,i have always felt that warmth with you.I was real mE with you, my comfort level with you have always been good.

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After that circumstances didn't support her,Things changed so rapidly,...Couldn't send this...

Adieu...

I have left the blog Writer's Lounge.It was entirely my pleasure and good luck till whatever time i was associated with it.It was a great experience,though i didn't contributed much,but it felt nice to be part of it.:-)
Thanks to the person who motivated me!:))
and thanks to Stephen!:)

Innocence of A Girl!

So here's my much awaited poem.This is my First Poem in Hindi.;)
I wrote This poem a way back.It one of my very pleasant memory.I Still remember when the first time i shared it with one of my very dear friend and i was so shy in sharing it with him because i found it bit embarrassing:D.I share my every first composition with him.:))

But then later i got compliments like that it is filled with innocence and all.:-)).
May be it is,May be its not,Some may find it bit funny.

But, nevertheless its my composition and I Love it!!:-))

Iss totte rishety se iss dil ke asihane ka kya hga
yeh pul sa dil ab pathar dil banjayega uska kya hga.
iss pathar dil ke aaso ka koi marram nhi ,
yeh aise he roota jayega.

phir ek din ek rajkumar ayega vo iss pathar dil ka maraham layega,
saare aaso lejayega,
r khushiyu ki barsat layega.

Bas intezar hai ab uss rajkumar ka jo yeh dherr saare khushiyan laega,
mjhe rajkumari jaisa ehsaas dilaega aur mere saare dukh dard apne banega.

Ishwar se bas prathana hai mere mat nazar lagane inn sapno par kisseki,
kardena inhe saach,
aur khushal kardena b zindage mere.

--GM