Hub dub*

Sometimes in your life it happens that you feel lost in some event. This event has made such a great impact on you that one feels like submerging in it till the time one can. (Yes here I am indicating a positive event)


Yes same has happened with me.

A feeling I can't express

But I want to express

It's a happiness with in me

I want to share

I want to shout and tell

How it feels

How It was!!

Yes I want to be lost in yesterday

Till a promising today comes

I will wait

Yes I will wait!

For a much closer and promising today!

For a much closer together stay!

xoxo!

Does every post need a title?

Why this feeling hits me again and again!

I don't like this feeling..
I don't want this feeling

Why this feeling comes back to me

That people don't understand me!!

Since a kid this feeling come back after a time again and again..

Why??

I don't want this!!

It's not peaceful!!

I don't want this feeling :(

Yes I do!

 I do crib

But only person I crib with, is you!

I throw tantrums

But only to you!

I don't think much 

when I share with you!

It's truly me

When I am with you 

But have you ever thought why only you!!

Because, I trust you

I know, no matter what

You understands me the best

You love me the best

You are there for me *

To hold me,when I fall.

To scold me When I overdo

I love you! 

xoxo!

  *( I am there for you too)

I wana hug tears for sometime.

I wana Cry

I wana Cry

Not because I am upset

But because

I wana take out

All negative

I have gathered inside me

So much I have embeded within me

Wana get rid of all those

Life is uncertain

Life is unpredictable

So as experiences

I have had a bit.

I wana shed some tears

and wana get rid of it

I wana collect my strength

So I can be ready for some more

But Today I wana rest.

I wana laid back!

I wana cry!

I wana be at peace!!

I wana be alone!

I wana cry !

Move on!!

In our life course we meet many people
Good, Bad..
But What
We all crave most is
for Life long friends..

We search them, We find some,
We experience bundle of Emotions..
Some positive, Some negative
Positives takes us high
Negatives leads us under

With a moral to remember: 

We are born alone,
We have fought our own life battles,
We'll die alone.
Why to get emotionally attach then,
When Negatives takes us so Deep down!!

Tasteless

Tears Rolls Down

With no words on lips

Blank eyes 

No Expressions

Except tears who surrounded her

Inside she was miserable

Want to have a cosy hug

A hand on her shoulder

A touch of Care

   all she needs!

A Dream ...

It was her afternoon sleep. She struggles herself to be in her dream state but her state refused. Yes she was dreaming! A afternoon mare instead of night mare. She was brave enough to see the ending of her bad dream. And that's why she wanted her dream state to continue and not stop for even a minute. But She wakes up with strange feeling. Her eyes were blank and were just revolving around her dream which she saw just few minutes ago. She was thinking about that. Try collecting all her thoughts. And when she started her flashback of her dream, she let tears conquered her strength.

 She realised it, her dream was an outline of what she holded in her subconscious state from a long time. A reflection of it was showcased through her dream.

It was a negative feeling which had submerged deep within her. A feeling of not trusting her capabilities, not understanding her...It was like junction of thoughts..some were identified and some weren't..

Somewhere she was relieved also as her negative source of energy is released through her tears..but somewhere she was uncomfortable too..

Finally..

She gets up from the bed. Drank some water and switch on the computer and then back to her work. This helped her divert her state from the sweaty dream she had...

Take it Easy!

"Life is Easy If we understand more and Judge Less"!
:-)

Love!

 Falling in love is Not with The Perfect Man. But, With The True Man"!
:-)

Unpredictable Life!

"Where you least expected to face a broken trust, You face it there!"
Such is Life!
Unpredictable Life!

Life is...

" Life is too short to think upon the Right time and Right moment"
I am not saying this just the sake of the dialogue but truly it is like this. From past so many days whats going around me and from my observance, I have noticed that Waiting for the right time and right moment for expressing our feelings, our love and care to our loved ones is of no use. Because we don't know what's store in for us tomorrow. Life is too short and as I say its very unpredictable on the same time.
We wait and make plans of conveying some deep feelings of ours to our loved ones by taking not person for granted but time for granted too and later if its very unfortunate we are not unable to convey our deep loving feelings to our loved ones and leaving us in regrets.

We tend to ignore our parents just because we are so busy with our own stuff and that too have no significance when it comes to parents. We just totally take them for granted. They are with us all the time so we can express our emotions our love, care to them any time we want. We wait for that particular moment. But why to wait for any moment when we can express it just there only. Why?? If somebody say we are humans. Right ! We are humans we tend to take things for granted but ! How much!? We should respect their love they give us. And the same way we should love them. Sit with them, talk with them share their experiences. How was their day? What did they do? Whats cooking and how?? All this. Hug them, love them!! Make them feel that we love them a lot and they are important to us!! They are in our world and that's why our world is complete. They are everything to us. These things are to be conveyed in different ways. Some people say that we just so inexpressive and we cant say through words. But does it justify your statement. At least A kiss and a hug can do. If not words. We have grown up so much that we take our decisions not even asking them because we feel that we are bonds kind and are capable of taking our decisions without consulting them but its absolutely wrong assumption we live in . Their experience is more than ours and they will always advise us with better ideas.

We teenagers whenever we feel we have a crush on somebody and then later think this is not the time and moment to share from that man/woman and there we make a mistake because when crush like thing is not planned, its just spontaneous then how can we think of deciding the right time and right moment. It should be like go and convey your feelings. If not this way but surely the other good ways.
We are in happy mood we are enjoying life and having fun because of him/her. We feel top of the world. So don't you think so he/her should be at least conveyed this that you are special and you make me smile!

Yes Fears is something where we all stuck up, fear of losing and we all have this somewhere. But as its said. Dar ke aagey jeet hai :) and Believe me its exactly like this. :)

Same goes with apologies, there is no specific time of saying 5 letter word sorry to anybody . We often don't say it because we give more importance to our ego then to our true emotions. But the fact is Ego helps in nothing but our feelings, true genuine feelings helps in maintaining love in relationship always. Whenever we hurt anybody, Sorry(If said with true heart) is the word so person can feel important and can light up her/him heart from the hurt given by us.

I have realized this that there is no time and any specific moment to exprss our feelings. Whether its parents or friends.  Every moment is perfect and a kodak moment.  There are only few people who complets our world and they are speical because they make our life special. Therefore it is our moral duty to make them feel, loved and jewels of our treasure box. Just be with us always- is the line which is to be conveyed to them wholeheardtly. :)

:)

Piece of Thoughts...

I really want to update my blog a long time back But couldn't do so. Finally today I am doing it or else whole lot of thoughts which are running inside will just get subdue. These days Thoughts gets subdue before the time I thoroughly realize them.
There is a lot many things going within me. A whole lot of Thoughts!! My Adernalin rush is on the peak but unfortunately some can be expressed and some cannot be..

- 2 days back when I was coming back from My class Suddenly I don't know what happened and I started worrying just because I didn't write anything from past so many days. I start fearing. Damn! All my vocab gonna lose... And I was Like What is going onn!!And Now I have decided I will scribble more often some thing or the either.

-I have to go and fill my MBA college form. Thankfully and Luckily I saw the forms details on time or else I would have missed it. Online buying and submission is already closed.

- I am worried about my Studying Schedule. I really wanna increase it. But I am not able to do it. I am so packed with so many things. Mon-Sat. I don't know How Ill set things on track now.

-People are these days becoming very Opinionated. They are not at all interested in understanding other's perspective . An X doing all this Shit, I can tolerate. But If Someone who is close to me, do it, It makes me Sad, disappointed, Hurt.

(I just came home and now sitting here and will get up once I finish this post. I have to publish this in the morning. 2 times light went off. I have to publish it now!!!)

- A Big Smile has to be brought on someone's Face . No matter what all clashes we share. But at the end"Smile tho Bante hai" :-)

-I Don't know why suddenly a thought of Losing pops up within me. When I started comparing something with other and I don't know what blaze in me which kept me disturbed.

When I analysed all this inside me I felt May be Because..

"Certain Times You know everything and then also You Fear Everything"

Life dearies....

Felt like losing a friend,, though I am not regretting because my conscience was pure and have no guilt feeling for it.. but yeah, I am sad.. because when you come to know that a person who says that you are his/her friend and then also that person takes you wrong, your intentions.Its disheartening.

At the end you just cannot help it..You feel subdue...You become so tired and so enthu-less...that u don't even feel like clearing any kind of misunderstandings,you become,,quite..just don't bother much..what people think about you now..not even what friends think about you,.................

Such is life dearies..

This also Happens sometimes!:)

A very out of the track incident happened today with me. I was coming back from CP in bus. I was sitting, a girl entered the bus and was standing behind my seat and asking for the ticket from the conductor.
When she was asking for the ticket, I got a feeling that I know this girl but here the interesting thing was that till that time I couldn't see her face.(Before seeing her face I got this feeling). It was just a feeling, and me so lazy that after getting this feeling also I didn't see her face. Then after some minutes, I looked little back and and then got a glimpse of her and I realised that I don't know her.

Now comes the interesting part, actually totally interesting, never expected this.
That girl was staring me, but I didn't notice that. And after a While that

Girl (asks): Do you live at PPG
I: ( very Shockingly) Yes. And got suddenly quiet for sometimes. Then,
I( asked her): Where do U put up?
I thought, If she knows me where I put up then for sure she must be living near by or so. BuT she used to live neither near by nor in my area, far from my place.
I was totally like What?? How can she know me like this???
Then I asked her: Do you know me??
She said: Yup!
I: How???
She: We met at Mandi house????
I: What?? When??

(I still don't know When I met this girl, though I generally don't forget peoples faces)

And after this I was so shockingly shockingly Shocked that, I couldn ask her anything more and I was totally quiet till my stop came.
I was totally like, what the hell is going?? How can she know me, and I don't know her.. Goodness me!!!
The most Cool thing which I was surprised about was my feeling, my inner feeling, I know I am bit good with that but This much good,I never thought.
I was like ,,ohk,,,
It was tooo Cool!!!!!
I mean hats off to my inner feelings!!!!



This incident just took me out of every shock which I m getting these days..
Amazingg...!!!!

Such is life dearies...

Tears..

Shedding Tears is always an easy way to get rid of ones negative Emotions.
I did the Same today. Cried and Got Away With The burden of Unwanted Emotions.

When these days Gona be over...

I don't know whats going on these days with me. I am not able to scribble down these days. I generally pen down my thoughts when I feel things,when I am emotional,When I go through Rush of feelings,I mean I write whenever I feel Whats going within me,sometimes,I couldn't do that also,because I am inexpressive with my allot of thoughts,feelings.But these days,I have become so dry,I mean,I don't know,I am not able to express anything. I am not able to Collect my thoughts on paper..

I Have realised it,they are only very few Who can understand you and can interpret you in the best possible way.Rest will never Understand you.I have started keeping most of the things inside me,and its Suppressing day by day..

I am Stressed.I am tensed.I am worried.I don't know what all I am carrying at the back of my Mind and day by day its getting suppressed. I don't wanna Stop writing, At one point I decided to say Goodbye to Blogger world,But I couldn't do that,I love My blog,I love reading others blog,I just don't wanna stop Writing.

I just Pray I get over with all this Soon..

I was Never Like this..

Love-A Peace of Mind.

Love an amazing feeling of fullfillement,
a feeling of all desires come to an end.
It refreshes the soul,gives new hopes to live in,

We start knitting dreams again with all the different pastel colours,
green,orange every bright colour we can think of..
Old leaves sheds down, bright shiny light comes out,
New bond builds up,clouds of misunderstanding wipes off.
A new beginning steps in,,.


Its like rebirth of ones own soul,worries are buried,peace comes in,
Life seems as rainbow with silver linning all over it.

No matter Its conveyed or not, but a feeling in itself takes us from one world to another of purity..
A world of dreams ,a world of contentment, a world of innocent fanatasies,

A glory is there,our face blossoms like a cheery flower,a believe comes in..
World seems the most beautiful gift we can ever get from Divine..
We Sing ,We Dance,We mutter all the time,
it just instill us with all the joys of life.
We lose control,we hop,we pop,we hip and hop, we talk all the time,
it just revives all senses,
What a soothing sensation it is.

A Love,A Love, what a miracle it is,What a Blessing it is.

:-):-)

Chapter Closed.

Finally the time has come when things are on the verge of ending. Her 2 year Crush has to be crushed now. She has believed in Happy endings,and she'll always be, but this would really be a disheartening sad ending for her. She never knew that things can change suddenly and she has to take the difficult decision of maintaining a distance from him.
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She holds no importance in his life now. She liked him with a pure and a innocent heart. It’s sometimes very hard to maintain distance from him, it pains a lot ,but she'll now. She somewhere still likes him but now the difference is, that feelings are suppressed and she’s happy like this.

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A touch Within!

Life is a crash,Emotions are mashed,
Numb are the feelings,Dont know what to lose next.

Emotions are stuck within, like a hard chewing gum,
After a allot of brush up, they still within and still stuck up.

Afraid of Expressing,don't know what will happen next.
Already know that feelings are suppressed,Excitement is lost,
Pain is no more felt,but Thankfully,
Feeling Happiness is still a live process,
Which is still sometimes onn.

I am Back:)

I am Back to Blogging Era and Dont have words to start with..?

Last I posted on 1st december. Papa got injured,severe injuries that too major ones ,Doctor said alot of risks are there,complications are there.But we trusted God,He gradually made things better.
His Welwisher prayed for him. Now after 14 days,hes sounding much better,though hes still in ICU,but alot of recovery is there.Doctors has marked his recovery a Miracle,Its all because of God's immense blesings,his care and his love.

Today i talked to Doctors he told us that if papa would have brought late to the hospital at the accident nite,he would have not survived.
Now Papa is better,but there's a long way to his recovery.But We Trust Divine,Everything gona be perfect soon.
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So as i was not blogging for since many days,Some people must have missed my presence,i Hope:D:D.
I was Obliged with 2 awards by some wonderful people,Stephen and Pankhuri. By this sweet gesture of their they tried and make an effort to make me smile and am very thankfull and greatfull to them.Thanks Stephen and Pankhuri:):)
Stephen Awarded me With The Rocking Riter Award[Which is dislayed on the right side of the Blog]
and Pankhuri Awarded me with The Kreative Blogger Award[Which is also displayed on the right side of the blog].
Thanks to both of them.
Cheers!
God Bless you all:-).