I express..

Sometimes It becomes so difficult to express what you like or dislike or what have hurt you or what made you happy.

Similarly it happens with me,

I can't express what I really want to. World sees me as an expressive person,I am. But not where I have to display some crude emotions.

My expression is limited and world mistakes me with what I am not good with.

At times it becomes difficult when you have to convey some great feelings of happiness to your close friends and you end up with smiles and smiles and minimum words and can be caught wrong of not being very happy for your friend. There things get screwed.

When I am angry with my friends or mellow because of something, there it becomes necessity to communicate and sought out the issues for smooth relationships and I myself  have always believed in keeping things simple but my inner self which is so close in itself that I can't express my thoughts thoroughly on that particular time which can be a drawback for my relationships with people

On the same time I feel that not responding or expressing what behaviour of the other person have affected me, it avoids further arguments or discords, (which I don't like at all..)

All this closeness inside me never lead to any grudges against people though.

I forgive and move on.. But at times when I am deeply hurt then it remains in my head, But, minus grudges..

In fact expressing happiness and love is more easier for me in comparison to hurt and anger...

At the end..things work it their own ways..Some are suppressed and forgotten and some lays fresh and are cleared with efforts from the other party..(not always)

And in some I take time to convey what I feel...

Such is life dearies..:):)

Move on!!

In our life course we meet many people
Good, Bad..
But What
We all crave most is
for Life long friends..

We search them, We find some,
We experience bundle of Emotions..
Some positive, Some negative
Positives takes us high
Negatives leads us under

With a moral to remember: 

We are born alone,
We have fought our own life battles,
We'll die alone.
Why to get emotionally attach then,
When Negatives takes us so Deep down!!

Just a Thought!

"Sometimes Hurdles Teach you How to Live some Good Moments of Life!"
:-)

Desire!

A Tight Gracious Hold.

A Touch of Innocence.

A Smile shinning in the eyes

Reflecting understanding and Care.

A feeling of protectiveness Surrounds

Making feel one truly Special

It's a Desire She folds..!

:-):-)

Memories!

Certain things in Life, remains the same.

Like;

The depth in Us which Twinkles with the every memory we make.!

:-)

Being Insensitive (is not equal) Being Inexpressive..

Ya. Complex Heading and perplexed post it could be. This is something which I have felt very deeply and that's why all the opinions on this post is what I have felt and feel from the world. I have always thought that Why does people often say  ; I am inexpressive? Are they really? Or it's just their insensitivity which Leads them to say this? Or its Ego, which stops them to even connect with the other person at times? Or they are so very involved with materialistic values of Life and ignorant of the difference between what does insensitivity means and what does Inexpressive?

All these questions banged my head one day and when I gave it a thought I realized that most of the people who says I am inexpressive and just can't express themsleves are the sheer case of insensitivity, Which was disheartening to understand.

I have seen this very often, when a person hurts another person, the person(who hurts) never turns up and apologize. And when asked the reason why s/he didn't say sorry? The only Answer comes: I just didn't know what to express and what to say and how to say? Which is very inappropriate and unethical and insensitive to say this! If you are sensitive enough, you have various ways to convey your warmth to another person, If not with the ease or with some little hesitance but you do convey your regards.

Theres a very thin distinction between being Insensitive and being Inexpressive which generally people are unaware of ;
"Inexpressive person is a person who is so sensitive of its environment itself that s/he will not hurt anybody and not even showcase his/her hurts too."

But often people club things and to stay out of any guilt they name their insensitivity as their inexpressive attribute which is Highly immoral and impractical and feels that it will help them get rid of any guilt and forget to realise that it will rather  push them through high turmoil of  Life.

Depleted

Emotionally Depleted is the word which I am using it for this week. It's not one incident, its just series of incidents which is making me feel this way. Week itself didn't start on good note. From the first day only when it got ruined and I knew it there's alot of happenings sliding their way to make this week miserable.And truly it was miserable.
I am Happy this week is getting over.On the same side I have definately found an outlet too,to release my negativites and I have done to some extend and feeling relieved. I am hoping for the fresh and productive next week with some good positive energies and enthusiasm. There is a lot to do and cope up with.
Hoping for the best.
Good Luck to me!
God Bless me!
:)

Soul..

Immortal is the soul.

When;

Entering A new body.

Feel the Magic

Feel the Divine.

How the same Soul ,

Forgets ;

Everything of past lives

And Starts a New Life

With the same Smile.

:-)

MotherHood.

Motherhood what a priceless part of women's Life. I certainly realized it today when I noticed 1 year old child with her mother playing around. The kid was covered with all wollens.First sitting and playing in her pram and later with  her mother when she finished doing her household work. Then after she got free, she took her out from pram and kid started walking in zig zag way. She was sweet.

Then I was wondering..

It such a wonderful experience seeing your kid growing everyday. Playing with your kid. Just Running after your kid. Though it can be exhausting but Its a sigh of relief for sure because mother's know somewhere this is how our kid is growing faster.

I was watching that lady she was with her all the time, holding her when ever she falls, keep her away from dogs. And you know what! Dogs are also sensitive enough to feel that this is small kid and can get scared so I should move out from this place and exactly happened. 

Mother has so much to do. Raise kids, do household work and if she's working then look it into her professional matters too.. I think of my childhood days how would they be.. I was naughty girl. Just running here and there touching every bit of showpieces at my home. I never us to eat food till the music is played. I mean , I now think How much worries I have given to my muma..

But I am sure My muma must have been extreamly satisfied seeing me growing everyday and knitting dreams for me every second.. and Love me like Angel for her..
I Love you Ma!! :)

.... !

A Day with Sun rise has to end with Sun set.

What a Life reality..

...

Lost Me....?

How Weird people are? Tell them 1000 times that you love them, trust them they'll not trust you. Stop showing your emotions to them, then also they'll say the same words.
Try and clear things with them, they'll always take you wrong, misunderstand you, put allegations on you, that you have lost me, I dont trust you, You can be as loyal as you can, then also You'll be standing in front of them and answering their questions. Oh God!!
Nobody wants to be empathtic, Everybody just knows, How to blame and help you to become subdue everyday.

I have shouted alot, My voice is tired, Its totally soured. My throat is dried. I have no energy left within me. I just want to be quiet for long time. I Want to observe people and want to listen what all allegation they can put to a person who doesnt speak a word now. I want a break,want to recahrge myself,want to come back with the same thoughts, that world is same,my own people are same and they know everything , If I had ever said I love them , I love them.

I have cleared a lot. People cant be understanding, And I can't be more nice and more patient to make them understand each and everything again. I have told them once I love them, they should know,Its all real not fake,If they dont accept, that means that they dont know me and had never accepted me.
I tried to give them my best and I expected the same I never got it and I never cribbed.
But Now I am totally exhausted, all energy is depleted, I cannot deliver more. Every piece within me is tired.
I need a break. I wana go away,far away..

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Hey R.G I know we planned for something else for today but Il surely Write that post very soon,When I'll be in a perfect Mood.
:)